Several months ago I was struggling. I was busy working full time and had just started my Masters of Divinity full time. I would come home from work and immediately open my schoolbooks and my Bible to study. I was reading every single week about the great and mighty works of God in my New Testament class. I was studying scripture consistently in my Counseling for Women class. I was learning about the word of God and the power it has to set the captive free from the chains of anxiety, depression, eating disorders, and every sin that easily entangles. I was learning so much but I was not allowing His word to transform my life. It became a textbook and a check off my list.
Have you ever been there?
Many of my seminary professors had warned me. Several people had told me that this would happen if I were not careful. Yet in my pride I thought I was too close to the Lord to fall into this trap. I loved His word too much to let it become a textbook or to allow it to be a chore in my life. I thought I was seeking the Lord through His word, studying His commands and learning about Him. Yet, I was not seeking the Lord out of a heart of obedience and a desire to know Him. I had quickly fallen into the trap of seeking His word for the answers to my test and because my quiz would ask if I read the assigned portion.
Dear sisters, please do not seek the Lord to mark something off your checklist or because that is what “good” Christian girls do. Seek the Lord with ALL YOUR HEART because it is the very thing that keeps your heart beating and your mind pure. When we seek the Lord in a desire to know Him and be transformed by Him it will radically transform our lives. Sometimes we will not “feel like it” or it may be that we don’t “feel” His presence yet we keep seeking and His word promises that we will find Him. Proverbs 8:17 says,” I love those who love me, and those who seek me diligently find me.”
In 1 Chronicles 16: 8-12 David writes a Psalm of Thanksgiving. He says
“Oh give thanks to the Lord; call upon his name; make known his deeds among the peoples! Sing to him, sing praises to him; tell of all his wondrous works! Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice! Seek the Lord and his strength; seek his presence continually!”
David tells us to seek His presence CONTINUALLY.
Often we seek the Lord for what He can do for us instead of just the desire to know Him and to be transformed by Him. I am certain that we will miss the very beauty and power of His presence and the richness of a relationship with Him if we don’t truly seek Him, just because we want to know Him more. Seeking the Lord requires a continual desire to know Him. It requires work and action on our part. When you were a child and you played the game of hide and go seek you did not sit there and wait for the person to come to you. You set out to find them. You looked in every corner, under every table, behind closed doors, and even in hard to reach places. It was a continual process of seeking until you found the person. Y’all, I have some good news! When we repent, turn from our sin and seek the Lord we will find Him! God is not hiding from those that continually seek Him because of Jesus we have access to the Father. I am a testimony of that truth!
Sweet ladies, please keep reading His word. Keep praying. Don’t be satisfied in the skimming of His word but instead bask in His word and seek to know Him deeply. I can promise you that as you seek Him and discover more about Him you will never be satisfied. Your heart will desire more of Him. Don’t seek His word solely for the answers you need. Seek His word and His presence because you need Him. Seek the Lord with all your heart. I can promise you that you will never be the same!